不过如此

当朝夕盼望的事终于出现在你面前

而那种感觉不是自己想像的

你是否会问自己到底过去一直执着的是什么

是一个人

是一种埋藏在心里的思念

你到底是被这种思念缠绕着

还是你自己根本不愿意放手

还想继续沉溺在这种感觉当中

用它来麻醉自己

一个人的价值观

有时侯会随着时间和环境改变

可能它今时今日的价值

已经比不上那时候的感觉

有些人要用一辈子的时间忘记自己的故事

有些选新的方向去发展

也有些人继续走原来的路线

轻易放算不算是没有原则

或是不肯放弃只是一个人太执着

怎样的情节

有多精彩

都要自己一步一步走出来

没到最后

结局是怎样

没有人会知道

(extract & edited from HK TVB drama - Season of Love 2013)

Another decision to make?

Nahhhhh!!! Off-Peak I am now!!!

Seriously I wanted to scream it out loud which I have promised myself whenever I felt breathless during the last few months. But it end up with "OMG Finally it is JULY 31,2012. I swear am going to be less efficient than usual from today onwards", in heart only!!! Not even have the energy to scream and just wanted to off and back home sharp at 5.30pm.

(p/s: I know is kinda late to post this right now, but just feel like to jot it down as one of my life event as an auditor?lol)

And OMG, the off-peak season is really a.w.e.s.o.m.e. lol. I was like in the holiday mode although assignments keep on coming, but am in the slow and easy mode doing the works(without any pressure/stress and try to take it easy). Not even bother to rush and they turned out good too. lol. I will keep it on then. There goes the-after-peak-picture of us! LOL 

There are pros and cons when it comes to having more spare time during the off-peak season. Got the time to rest, and when you have enough rest, you will think more than usual. Is good to let ourself to think and figure out what is the next step should be, but when it comes to the time that we need to make choice/decision, well honestly, I hate. Should I take the chance now or later? Not a good timing again???Urghhh. Am just lazy to pick choice and hate to make decision. Perhaps, am all alone in making decision for myself all these years and am really tired.

Okie, I know I still need to move on by myself no matter how much I hate. Just can't let myself to stand still right now at this stage! 

I believe in faith and I will fight for it next!

Will be wrapping up September 2012 real soon...again? lol

Anyway, time for counting down for the study break!

Random

Have been wanted to spend some times alone, listening to the rhythm of the songs and to jot down somethings at this space, a space which truly solely just for my own self to blab on. :D

I used to write or to have this blog 4 or 5 years back. Just spending my time here other than study or hanging out. A space which I can somehow express myself (not all perhaps), to release whatever anger or stress, etc. etc. And now, I know I miss those times, which I can simply have my time to feel and to write whenever I wanna to.

Works and outings with colleagues simply filled up my days, including my precious weekends. Of course, I did feel happy spending time after work with them. I use to spent my weekends doing my own stuffs. Staying at home alone, watch series, housework, or anything else which I feel I want to do can simply make my weekends. And these make me feel that I finally did something for myself other than works! LOL. I know is kinda lame, but this is just so me. I would love to stay in my own comfort zone once in a while (average of 2-3 weekends every month will be nice :P) rather than hanging out, that's just tiring. haha, sign of getting old? 

Is not the matter of I don't like to hang out or like to stay alone, but sometimes I just need a space just for myself, times which just for me, for no reason. I might be spending time doing nothing, just browsing through the net, or just cleaning up and decorating my place, or just hang out to the nearest bookstore for some readings, or a window shopping will do.

"I need some times for myself" are words that often come to my mind after been working for about 6 months. I need the times to cope with all the updates, for some extra readings, to figure out the way to brush up myself etc. etc. I don't want to spent my entire life just to work for the sake of the job. Just so scared whenever am asking myself is that my life all about. 

After all, am still alright. Just to blab :P I know I simply need a little bit more time to figure out myself. 

Space and time is all I need now! haha ;)

Here goes some updates on myself recently :)

Random outing's shot of us

Celebrated my 23rd birthday with surprise from colleagues during our working trip @ Kuantan.

Thanks for everything. Am blessed to have you guys working together.

Wrapping up everything :)

Another ordinary post to wrap up my 2011. :)

A very brief one.

Finally graduated and stepping into the working world. Everything seemed to be on track and I feel thankful for that.

Nothing much for this year. As usual, uncertainties and challenges keep on coming. Welcoming them with opened heart.

Losing granny in the month of October was indeed another changes in the year for my family. Although it was expected since she was suffering for illness, lying on the bed for almost a year, but somehow we still can't really use to it especially when we come across those times/memories with her when she was still doing good. May you rest in peace. 

Things may not come out as expected, which did turn me down to some extend, but it did turning me to a better one or even tougher one as well. I am learning to grow. Last but not least, thanks to those who bear with me, who giving me support and advice whenever I need, who willing to spent time with me just to make sure everything is ok on me etc. etc. You guys are truly awesome buddies!

Spending 2/3 of my new year holidays with besties! Had a great time with them together with nice food and desserts. =)

Have a great year ahead everyone!

Another Chapter =)

Here I come =P

Been staying at home for months since May after done with my studies in college, preparing for both internal & external resit's papers, and finally waiting for the results.

Everything seems to happen so fast when I recall back what I did for the past few months.

During the time, I used to get bored when having my revision at home and waiting for the results to be released. So, I make up my mind to find a temporarily job instead of my planning, which is to finish at least 4 remaining ACCA papers out of 6 before I get into the working life (thinking that I won't be using the 5 months break before the next exam's sitting to study full-time...lol) or maybe going for my degree's top-up program next year.

I went into job hunting conditions, prepare resume, apply various relevant types of jobs, waiting for calls, attending interviews, assessments and etc. For a fresh graduate with average results like me, the job hunting process was beyond words. Other than the basic requirements such as your academic results and also some soft skills, the first impression and talk confidently is a must during the face-to-face interview. And don't ever under-estimate yourself, send in your resume/profile to any position that you feel comfortable with, although you may think that they won't hire you because of your results but you may get surprises from that. You might not be shortlisted, but you will learn and get something during the entire process which will definitely useful.

I got a job and today is my 1st day of work. Perhaps another brand new chapter. Although it might not be my dreamed job, but somehow I know I will gain something else, and I will be there again.

Hope it will be another simply blast brand new chapter!

Till then, good nite ppl =)

Officially Missing You - JS - Tamia (cover)

Lovely & Blessed =)

A Quick Ones ;)

Finally, I can officially start my holidays =D

Finished the 4 alphabets killer papers and the last outstanding paper on Monday.

Back in KL, the place where I stayed for almost 4 years for the last outstanding paper for 3 days.

After leaving there for 2 months back at home, kinda miss the life on myself back there. lol.

Am not missing the hectic, polluted environment there of course, but the shopping complexes :P

Whats next?

I really have no idea.

Perhaps, I should wait for the results 1st.

Praying real hard.

Will be staying back at home for the time being.

Yayy, my real home :)

I probably need some rest and vacation :)