Super Random on Halloween

2.54 am now....and i m still "ngan guong guong"...LOL

probably caused by the hot coffee juz now...
yeah...coffee can make me stay awake...it works on me...
so it was my favorite during exam period...haha

went out for yamcha session just now with bunch of classmates...
at Happy Seasons...
a sudden outing for me which i actually planned to stay at home at 1st...

sometimes i am just asking myself...
why am i so weird that like to stay alone??haha...
i love to be alone...
i like that kind of silence...

although sometimes it might makes me feel lonely...
but i m just fine with it...
for all these while...

Happy Halloween

STUCK is SUCKSSS

i m still
STUCK!!!

i m just letting myself to laugh back at me for what i m
doing
caring
thinking
worrying
dreaming
insisting
missing
loving
for these days and right now
wake up pleaseeee!!!

it's just like i can't survive without IT
*WTH* I AM!!!

CHOO HOI TING
STOP THESE!!!

i have been trying hard and keep telling myself that everything was
OVER...END...GONE...
there will be no turning point for what i had chosen and done...
no use for me to explain for what i had done...
no use for me to feel sorry for what i had done...

i won't expect for understanding
(although i was hoping)
i won't expect for forgiveness
(although i know i need it so much)
i won't expect for happiness
(although i m now trying hard to work for it)
i won't expect anything because i don't deserve and i don't dare to
i know i should not expect anything else

i should rather expect and hope that everything was going on smoothly on you
which will make the journey easier...the life happier...
with your companions all along the journey...

OK...maybe some of you are thinking i m not mature enough although i m now 20...whom should be able to handle it well...but still emo*ing all the way...whatever...it was just a way for me to dump out whatever i m thinking, i m feeling...the feeling was just suckssss if i keep on hiding in my heart...

p/s: i don't know why my blog status has not been updated on others' blog lists although the blog had been updated and i don't know how to fix it of course...anyone knows why?...

Granny's Day

time to update with some happy post instead of emo*ing~~~LOL...haha

Back to CNY early this year, while all of us, i mean all the cousin sisters and brothers were gathered together just like every year we did, had came out with a plan that to have a birthday celebration for granny this year...a really full attendance of family members....

For the past years, our family did celebrate with granny and of course were all done by our parents...means granny's son and daughters lo...and maybe some of the family members did not able to make it because of works and studies...it can be said that there were no full attendance of family members...

So for this year and i guess for the years ahead, we, as the grandchildren will be responsible for the rest of her's birthdays =)

We actually make this for granny to have an enjoyable dinner together with all her children and grandchildren and for sure she will be very happy to see all of us together...=)

We did not celebrate on granny's birthday as she did not use to (pantang worr)...haha...so we make it a few days later on weekend and called it as Granny's Day....so everyone can make it =)

Let the pictures to tell everything...

She was smiling all the way when we were all back in hometown till the day~~~

when i was taking her photos, she kept asking me "hip liao sui bo?"..means...did the photo looked nice?..LOL...haha....

1st & the 2nd generation

with the 3rd & 4th generation

different generation with same hair style...LOL...

everyone was enjoying till the max on that day...singing...dancing...joking around...
it ended around 11++pm...but for 1st & 2nd generation only...haha...lol
we then end up sing-k till 3 something...with cousins....

Enjoyable Family Nite
Love them!

the day

finally

it happened

i know it supposed to be like this

but i just cant take it for this moment

no one can be blame but myself

it hurt a lot

it will be the 1st and the LAST time for me to make the mistake

my promise

Hoiting

=(

as usual...i switched on my PC once i woke up...
again...the monitor "ki xiao" again...
this was already the 3rd or 4th time...
i hate this kind of feeling...
don't know what happened...
the monitor was still working last nite before i switched off...

it was like nightmare that happened last week when i back home...
same case...monitor spoiled...same brand...
S#ms#ng brand monitor
i won't take u again if i happen to buy a new one...
few of my frens who are using the same thing had got the same problem...

after i unplugged all the cable then i leave it for half hour...
i switched on again...it works!!!!
THANKS GOD

seriously
i can't live without my PC
LOL

till here...going off for class soon~~~

i found out something today
it was such a big disappointment
i have nothing to say
just #$@!#$@$

yeah
i finally realized that
is good that not expecting too much from anyone
especially
anyone you trust
anyone you care
anyone you loved

someone told me this years ago
it suddenly made me recalled back when things keep on happening on me...here goes...
"If you love someone
don't put their name in a heart
but put it in a circle
a heart can be broken
but circle goes on forever"

at first i don't really get it
but i got it now i guess

all the while i have been telling myself
how beautiful this world is
how beautiful humans are
but why???

sometimes i wish i can leave and go for another place which totally new and fresh for me

the place that can make me totally lost contacts and news on whoever i care a lot
the place that no people will know me and so i dont know anyone of them
the place that could make me out from problems and difficulties
the place that i can do whatever i wish to
the place that i can have a peace mind
the place that i really like to live on

p/s: OK...finished "dumpling" out...u guys can just ignore me...=) i know i need to be focused on my studies and ignore all irrelevant stuffs... i know i can make it!!!

月圆人团圆

八月十五，中秋节
小时候都不懂八月十五是什么东东
看见妈妈从她朋友那里拿了订做的月饼，才知道中秋节到了
每年到了那个时候只会吵着爸爸买灯笼

其实中秋节真正的意义是什么
我真的不懂
有月饼吃? 有灯笼拿? 有月亮看?
还是和嫦娥奔月的故事有关?
哈哈

或许它真正的意义就是
月圆人团圆

不懂为什么
自己似乎对一些节日越来越在乎
特别是与家人和亲戚朋友有关的节日
可能就因为只有在这些大日子
大家才会有机会聚集在一起吧

或许我们大家都在各个不同城市的角落
不能和亲朋戚友们相聚
只能互传短讯、通电话等等
不过相信总会有相聚的一天

祝大家中秋节快乐

LOL....i dont know why i will write out this kind of post....too free i guess...and maybe meaningless...was just blabbing around...
I guess was because of my emo ...maklumlah...baru balik ke KL dari Alor Star hari ini...haizz...
and also had been hearing to the radio all the way from alor star to KL which keep on promoting the Mid-Autumn Festival today....ZzzzzZZ...tats why....