Started to have this post last year, and it will be my annual post(if I still maintaining this blog.LOL). Somehow, I feel that this is a way for me to recall back what had happened throughout the year and jot it down as part of my memories itself and also as the reminder to myself for those which truly made me to grow.
2010 was not a year for me, perhaps. I know it wasn't right for me to have this negative thoughts, but just accept it, take it and let it go along with 2010.
Most of us here have marked our so called legal age this year. Representing that we are adult and having the responsibility not only to our own self, perhaps to the family too. But for our generation, I bet there is no commitment for us until we graduated from college or university, which is a grant that may grant us for a living, given by our parents. Perhaps, is also a way for parents to ensure their children are capable enough to earn for a living in the future. Till then, only the commitment come to us. As time goes, some of us here is on the way to finish their studies or in the final year, and some are still enjoying the study life.
I used to have expectation that I will finish my studies, graduate on time, get a good job, settle down myself and so on. I have the confidence that I will make it, and I never doubt about that before. I never doubt about how will my life be after I graduate, but not for now, I feel blur when I was thinking about it. This started since I failed 1 subject in my final year that made me didn't manage to fulfill the requirement to top-up my Advanced Diploma to a Degree on time. I tried to convince myself that I still have a choice, which is ACCA. But somehow it was really hard as I went through on the past sitting on early this month. To be frank, I have no confidence. What would be my life after getting Advanced Diploma with average results?
I know, instead of thinking this and that, I should put more and more effort on my study. =) Perhaps, there will be a way for me to get through all these. =)
Am thankful that there is no single pressure from my parents nor family. They are giving full support to me throughout the journey. Sometimes, I feel sorry, even guilty to them as I think didn't play my role or my part good enough especially on my study. Sorry for that, and I will definitely make it soon!
Apart from my studies, I do hope my family is being blessed by God, especially to my grandma by giving her strength, to fight with her illness and suffers.
Till then, I think thats all for the year 2010 that truly made me grow, learn and change during the year =)
