OVERESTIMATED

i had been overestimating myself all these while
totally & absolutely
which brought me a lot of failure till today
there is no way for me to deny
i hate myself being who i am now

overconfident to myself in terms of anything
of course
not on my appearance & personality

i thought that i could handle anything by myself
i thought that i m independent enough to face them all by myself
without being worried by anyone
especially my family
but yet now i have to admit that
i am wrong and i failed
i need them very very much

i m not that tough & strong as i thought

although i m trying very hard to comfort them that i m just good
not telling them the problems that i had
to prove on
to comfort them on
that i m just doing well out here
there is no any reason that will make them worry about me

but they know what am i trying to cover and prove on

every time they will try to comfort me on their way
with all their passions & loves
without hurting me or
make me feel that i m useless

i m thankful that i had been awarded to be with my family
who always by my side whenever i need them
their loves without any
condition
hesitation
excuse

being who i am now

i m just proud of having such
a lovely family

instead of my ownself