double SHORT

back in KL today... zzzZZzz

5 days break right after exam


FIRST short

it was really a very short break
for the 1st time i felt it

didn't have enough time to finish what i have planned
home cleaning session for CNY
my own stuffs

not to say to have a rest


SECOND short

i lost my long hair~~~~~~
went for a hair cut the day after i back in AS
which i waited for so long to cut the GRASS after 3 months
part of it was for my internship purpose

i told him i want a hair that
suitable for me
doesn't look messy
easy for me when working
easy for me to take care of it

when it turned out
already 3 inches ++ shorter

it looks OK when i was there

when i back at home looking at the mirror

OMFG...
why was it so SHORT???!!!!
where is my long hair which i waiting thousand yearsss for it to long???


Okay...i know i can't do anything now...
instead of waiting it to long again...

....

exam period
*lifeless*

2 out of 3 papers
1 more to go

sleeping time was turned upside down these days
sleepless nite on the nite before exam
although i tried to go on bed earlier

finished audit paper yesterday
tot i will have a slightly good nap after lunch
it was not and i dreamed
guess what i dreamed

all the questions and answers popped up in my dream
they just popped up easily in my mind compared during the exam
*wtf* i squeezed my brain when i was doing the paper
and now they just popped up like that *wtf*

the feeling was just horrible when u finished the paper in the morning
and it still popped up when u having a nap/rest
it woke me up immediately
it was just a 45 minutes nap


well...
it was a slightly better nite for me last nite...
it was just because i just had 4 hours sleep at night since 4 days ago...
tired...feel wanna sleep...but just can't fall asleep...

Okay...1 more to go on Monday...
rotting since yesterday without touching the notes and book...

Gotta back on them now...

单身潜逃

单身潜逃

词曲：戴佩妮
编曲：吴庆隆
演唱：戴佩妮

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样
曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤

我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

Random call

Mum called me just now

As usual... a random call i thought

She told me that brother will be going back a week earlier before CNY


I know what is her intention for telling me that

as she asked me to reject the internship's offer which will starts early February onwards

asked me to find others...or to start it later on March

even asked me not to go for the training & back for holidays *swt*

since my brother was out here for his studies 6 years ago & now working

before i was here studying

i can felt that how a mum miss her son

the sadness when every time sending him back to KL

the happiness when fetching him from the station

preparing his favorite meals...etc...etc... when every time brother back at home

kinda envy him that time & wondering will i have the same when i m the one studying outside next time.... haha

since young... i have a thinking that my mum was kinda more *sayang* my brother...Lol....

haha...OK... i know i was wrong

Yeap... i was having the same *loves* from my mum
(is the time for my 2 sisters to *ciak chor...lol...haha=p)

I know why mum keep asking me to reject the offer or take leave
(which i don't think is good)

for me being able to back together with brother

having our family time together earlier...longer...during CNY

both of us spending most our time here...work.... study


sometimes i do felt sorry when every time she asking me...

"are you coming back this weekend/public holiday??"

reasons given...
will having tests... busy for assignments... due to the laziness to travel for 6 hours...bla bla bla...


i am just studying... why am i not having the time to go back in the past 3 months??
busy than those who are working???
*wth*

When there is a will....there is a way & solution

i will try my best to make it better

Okay... i should stop crapping

thanksgiving F.T.Y.E 2009

Happy New Year 2010 Everyone !!!


Taken during the very 1st minute of 2010

*creative* work by 1 of my frens while waiting for our brunch
@ Kim Gary

Things might not turn out as what we expected to
but yet those which are not expected keep on happening
they are just beyond our control
stay strong & take them as part of the challenges in our life

THANKSGIVING for the year ended 2009

things might not turn out to be as expected through out the year...

but i am thankful that i am still able to cope up with them...

although i am not yet that perfect in handling them...

FIRST : Family

Problem still goes on which has been occurred since 8 years ago. The financial problems. No doubt that it was really tough times for my family, especially my parents. I can't help anything as i am still not yet capable. Being part of the family, i am not blaming anything yet i am thankful to be given a chance to see the other side of this world of this world, the reality. I do learned and observed a lot, the way how ppl treat us including relatives, how ppl give us a helping hand when we almost give up, being betrayed by relatives... etc etc...

Don't expect any return but just do it with sincerity of your heart. We will have more than that.

Tears do dropped when i was on the phone with mom some times, when she told me what have happened right there. They strive very hard, just to get us a better living. Sometimes i do try to understand or put myself into the situations they are facing, the reality of this world which involved your very loved ones/relatives. They didn't mention what had actually happened, although i know that they were disappointed, but they told that people are not granted to help us even they are capable enough, instead of hoping for others, we just do whatever we can and do help up those whichever is possible if we are capable.

No doubt that the problems had been hunting us for years. Although it was not happened directly on myself, but i was thankful that i am given the opportunity to be exposed to the very real side of this world at my early age.

And for now, with the blessings, thanks that everything is going on smoothly and better than before these. Things get to settle and soon i know, a lot more of happiness are right there waiting for my family. Thanks to brother that do helped out a lot all these while. I am willing/can't wait to share out the burden of you guys once i am capable.

SECOND : Stay sound & Healthy

May all my loved ones always stay sound and healthy especially for my grandma. I want back grandma who will ask me early in the morning when having breakfast outside.." Do you want to share Cola with me?? I can't finish it..." This is the real her...a 85++ grandma of mine. Her health condition had been going down for these 2 years. All of us are worry for her especially my mum who was taking care of her. She had been committed to hospital by ambulance for 2 times in 6 months time. She was the one who can be said that healthy than anyone of us in the family until she reached her age of 80++. She seldom get sick & not to say that those high cholesterol or high blood pressures.

For the very 1st time when i heard that she was committed to the hospital, i was totally shocked. i was having my brunch at Oldtown and i can't finish up the rest of the meal after i got the news. I was told by my mum and i can heard that she was crying.

The feelings when your loved ones are not doing well or etc...is not that good. Yeah... we must treasure our loved ones whenever we could make it & yet not to forget to love and take care ourself in order to treasure them. =)

THIRD : My study

I am thankful that I was given the chance to be part of AFA. It was a big challenge for me as an average student to get into this course. I will try my best to pass through all the papers for all the 4 semesters. It is my promise for myself which will be my priority for the 2 years ahead.

As for my internship, I am thankful that i had been selected by a small-medium firm after a few attempts. It was hard to accept when I had been rejected for the very 1st attempt.
For the 2nd attempt, i was just reluctant to reject the offer given. Yeah, no doubt that we have the right to accept or reject, but as a trainee, i felt bad to reject once i had been accepted as i was given the opportunity to learn. Forced to reject due to some reasons.
Felt hopeless whenever i heard that some of my coursemates/classmates are going for their internships. I know...kinda "gia-shu' problems...haha...
Thanks god... i got the offer for the 3rd attempt. Had been accepted for internship from February to April.

I know is kinda weird as it is only an internship which is just a small thingy... not yet coming out to find a job... but to me... it meant although it was just a small matter...

Last but not least, for him. I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to know you, although it might not turn out as expected & lots of disappointments. I am glad to be given a chance to know you, to care about you, to learn how to love and what is love etc etc... You are the one who let me know what love actually is. No regret in knowing till loving you, which were all beyond my control. If i was given a chance, it will still be the same for me, but for sure, with a different way. May god bless you with tonnes of love & happiness for the years ahead.

p/s : Went through all the previous posts for year 2009. I was laughing at myself. Am i the one who changing??? Or times can change everything??? or the world is changing???