FINAllY

Almost a week...busying for the assignment..finally i have my time to hang around the websites...
Really made me felt exhausted..never experience it before..maybe because of other things that came across my mind during the peak period~~~pressure~~~~

The assignment was handed up but the others things was haven't settle...

That really made me mentally exhausted since last Tuesday...when your lovely friend was in unconscious conditions till now...this moment... Although there was improvement...but there was still something that can't really make me feel relieve at all...so do her family... The only way to make me feel really relieve not others~~is that she really fully recover... Instead of waiting her news from far away, whenever the HP rang or received sms...my heart almost skipped a beat...that's really "mentally killers"... i scared the content..the bad news ...

May GOD bless ~~~

TIred

Many things that I want to say out...but don't know who and where....Maybe is just at here...

Suddenly I felt very tired...really very tired...Don't know where it come from...maybe this is called LIFE... there was always something that need us to worry about...think about...consider about...concern about...and there was no ending at all...izzit rite??

18...was just the beginning of one's life??Is that the challenges will come forward one by one with no ending at all?? Is this called the "journey" that everyone should go through??

I know that there was still a long long way for me to survey and past through....but I really tired, can I just have a rest and continue later?? Or I can't do it just because that don't want to waste the time on fighting for my own future??

Maybe these challenges came since a baby was born to this world...is just that all the challenges were solved by our beloved parents in order to give us warmest...happiness...and not get hurt...we didn't realise that at all...when we are alone without our parents..need to face all by our own...so we just feel tiring....get hurt..etc...

Many times that make me want to give up myself because of tired...but don't know why I just can't...Maybe is impossible or not easy for one to give up ... maybe is good for me that didn't give up... I need to fight for myself....

No one lives for others, but for your own

UNKNOW

Don't know what am I going to write as there was so many that I wish I could say out at this moment. Just simply wonder that why I can't give myself a good rest on this sem break. I am just so tired, is not physically, but mentally.
Erm...maybe there is a need for me using chinese to express out my feelings...

是否一切事情的发生都有前因后果?
是不是一旦有了开始,就会有问题存在?
是不是有了问题存在,就会开始有烦恼?
是不是有了所谓烦恼,就一定要解决它?
是不是要解决烦恼事,就必须要有代价?
而那所谓的代价是大是小,就有赖于当事人怎么看待?

相信每个人从懂事以来,都曾经作过大大小小的决定...
很多时候当我们必须作出决定时,仿佛是个十字路口...
我们都会用尽判断能力来作出适当的决定...
把失败率...伤害...甚至损失减至最低...
但无论作出什么决定,都有其代价...

就在遇到烦恼,需要作出决定时...
有些会不知所措...因为心里无法作出选择?
有些会速战速决...因为不想处于矛盾状态?
有些会选择逃避...因为根本不想式着面对?
还是那烦恼问题根本不存在?
纯粹是自己心理作用在作怪?

这些暂时我都无法给自己完整的答案...

但很清楚的是,当我们自己无法作出决定或选择时...
身边关心我们的人,他们的矛盾...无奈...
肯定不比当事人少...因为都是他们关心的人...
那时候当事人唯有对自己关心的他们而作出一些
能把对身边关心自己的人的顾虑或是担心等等减到最低的决定...
而自己却默默的承受一切付出的代价...

有时候觉得偶尔不需要太理智...
如果顺着心里所想的走下去...自己又过得开心...
那身边的人也不就开心了吗...

只可惜大家往往都觉得应该理智的处理大大小小的事情...
才不会酿成大错...

I don't know what is this post title should be...Maybe it shou be name as
UNKNOW ^_^

雨

它从昨晚一直下个不停...
是把它的烦恼一直抛向本来无犹无虑的凡人...
或是以雨水为凡人洗掉一切烦恼...
或是替凡人所遇到的困难感到悲哀...怜悯...而流泪呢...
而过后是否能雨过天晴呢...

当以充满了后悔或悔不当初的情绪望着那从天而降的雨水时...
无可否认...觉得上天正为我们所做的一切而感到悲伤而流泪了...

当以充满了悔意...等待着奇迹出现...或是渴望还是期待的心情...
那时候...该会是想着从天而降的雨水能够把烦恼冲走...把问题解决吧...

当觉得自己已无能为力的时候...
却是希望从天而降的雨水仿佛是在为所需要的人加油...打气吧...

凡事如果能够预知未来...从不同角度去看待...解决...
想必那雨水未必在凡人心中...情绪上起得了作用吧....

怎么了...

一整天都在家里...
绵绵细雨也似乎替我而感到悲伤...下了一个下午...
而我则在房里望着外头...
曾经觉得下着绵绵细雨的时刻是那么的凉爽...舒服...
但那感觉似乎完全不一样了...消失了....

那一刻是那么的心酸...
仿佛一些不如意的事情发生了...
可怕极了...

曾经以为是美好的...为何如此可怕??

是不是意味着...或是暗示着即将发生一些事...

或是纯粹那一刻的心情...

到底怎么了...

寂寞与无奈

突然间觉得华语才足以表达此刻的内心世界...

安静的夜晚往往都是寂寞的吧...
安静夜晚的同时也会让你想起某些在自己心目中重要的人物...
安静的夜晚会让你想起开心的....也会让你想起不开心的...
安静的夜晚会让你更想念你平时想念的人...
安静的夜晚会让你胡思乱想...
这安静的夜晚真是让人无奈...

HOme SweET hOmE

Yeah..Finally I'm home~~~The feeling is so nice~~~After a short break about 2 days after the examination...hanging out with friends or even went out shopping myself~~~was a window shopping actually instead of break up my wallet :-p haha
Yes, is happy to be home...but i think after a few days, I will be starting the boring feel...what can i do at home? Watching drama series? online? hanging out? sleep? eat? haiz~~~

ExAM StarTeD

As the post title, my exam had started~~~Today is the 1st day of my exam and a subject called "Hubungan Etnik" had just been examined from 9am-11am this morning. I am rite now here at the CITC of the college (where the students can have the free online facility) while waiting my next paper, "English Language" at 2pm-4pm. Well, the past paper was not as tough as I thought but of course I still can't get full scores~~haha ^_^

Being away from online for a few days after just spending a lot of time in front of the computer when holidays..not easy lol..haha... I was be with my housemates and roommate these few days..why?? because we were all studying for the exam... so "guai" at home but still did stupid stuffs together once a while whenever we were lack of study mood...haha... We used to watched the funny Korean movie "zhong yi jie mu", gossips, eat and eat..haha...is just to have fund instead of studying the boring subject like the HE, a subject like sejarah...OMG... We will still go through this kind of routine everyday till the exam period end I think and then we will just go back to our "common" daily or even weekends routines...play, eat, hanging out, shopping, movies and things that can make us feel happy and relaxing for teenagers todays~~~Wow...so nice...and hope the day will be coming so soon ^_^

After the exam period, will be having almost 3 weeks semester holidays for us... Yea, will be going back to my hometown and my sweet home~~Nice~~~Going to have all of my favourite foods, drinks, deserts and my all dearest friends~~~It has been such a long time I didn't hang out with them since I was here, KL to study...Miss them a lot...I missed the time when we all hanging out together, chit chatting and of course doing crazy stuffs~~haha

These are all I am going to do when I was out from the "jail"...sad~~~~ and it was on 10 days times~~~can't wait for it liao ler~~~~

I think I should stop here, and soon, I will be posting out some post about my past time when the holidays start as i was having super extra times spending in front the computer again :-p

THe pAst 3 Days HOlidays~~~

The 3 days holidays was so fast...why 3 days??caused of the Malaysia's 50th Merdeka celebration which was a public holidays, and the 2 weekend days...for those TARcians~~going to have their study leaves..of course including me~~

I should have to continue my revisions in these few "extra" holidays~~but i can't make it!!! Well, I think "here" which is full of facilities compare with the place I staying while studying without anything for me to deal with instead of study~~~Haiz~~ Hanging around, going out with friends, online, sleep, eat was what I am doing these few days..Sad..

Semester Examinations coming in 6 days from now~~~after that~~will be having 2 to 3 weeks of holidays~~~actually i should be happy with this but it doesn't happen to me....I don't know what to do on these coming holidays~~~going back to hometown??stay in KL??find a job to earn some extra $$??

OK...stop your dreaming now~~~concentrate with your revisions~~~~

WelCoME

Hi everyone..whether who knows me or not..I am Hoi Ting here...
I am just trying to have a blog for myself...nothing much..just a very good try for myself..
This blog might not be update so frequently because the place I live for this moment doesn't having the Internet access...
Hope I will have a nice try for this blog ^.^