For the year 2010

Started to have this post last year, and it will be my annual post(if I still maintaining this blog.LOL). Somehow, I feel that this is a way for me to recall back what had happened throughout the year and jot it down as part of my memories itself and also as the reminder to myself for those which truly made me to grow.

2010 was not a year for me, perhaps. I know it wasn't right for me to have this negative thoughts, but just accept it, take it and let it go along with 2010.

Most of us here have marked our so called legal age this year. Representing that we are adult and having the responsibility not only to our own self, perhaps to the family too. But for our generation, I bet there is no commitment for us until we graduated from college or university, which is a grant that may grant us for a living, given by our parents. Perhaps, is also a way for parents to ensure their children are capable enough to earn for a living in the future. Till then, only the commitment come to us. As time goes, some of us here is on the way to finish their studies or in the final year, and some are still enjoying the study life.

I used to have expectation that I will finish my studies, graduate on time, get a good job, settle down myself and so on. I have the confidence that I will make it, and I never doubt about that before. I never doubt about how will my life be after I graduate, but not for now, I feel blur when I was thinking about it. This started since I failed 1 subject in my final year that made me didn't manage to fulfill the requirement to top-up my Advanced Diploma to a Degree on time. I tried to convince myself that I still have a choice, which is ACCA. But somehow it was really hard as I went through on the past sitting on early this month. To be frank, I have no confidence. What would be my life after getting Advanced Diploma with average results?

I know, instead of thinking this and that, I should put more and more effort on my study. =) Perhaps, there will be a way for me to get through all these. =)

Am thankful that there is no single pressure from my parents nor family. They are giving full support to me throughout the journey. Sometimes, I feel sorry, even guilty to them as I think didn't play my role or my part good enough especially on my study. Sorry for that, and I will definitely make it soon!

Apart from my studies, I do hope my family is being blessed by God, especially to my grandma by giving her strength, to fight with her illness and suffers.

Till then, I think thats all for the year 2010 that truly made me grow, learn and change during the year =)

Merry Christmas ^.^

Merry Christmas ! =)))))

Am here to clean the dust. LOL

Hang out with classmates for steamboat session somewhere @ Sri Petaling on the Xmas Eve =)

I was told that prior reservation is needed as it was quite crowded.

We stuck in the traffic jam almost 1 hour ++ to reach there :S

Harbour Steamboat Restaurant

Instead of Tomyam or 清汤

Different and special 汤底 @ Harbour Steamboat

Can't really remember the name but the types of soup served is something that

清热润肺

For those who likes dumplings like me, you will love them very much. LOL

They serve various types of dumplings, with different meat, seafood & vege inside.

Taste AWESOME !

My very 1st try on lamb with soup. LOL

At 1st, I just wanna to have a try, as I don't really like to have it.

It was served in slice and it was NICE!

p/s: my classmates purposely come for this. LOL

There goes my Xmas Eve :)

Was not really into celebrating on this day actually, but after all and at least am not alone. LOL

As Xmas goes, New Year is coming.

Somehow, am not ready yet. :S

Till then, Merry Xmas to all of you =)

I'll Move On - Olivia

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been through this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here

But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cause the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive through this storm

So I say, come what may
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step at time
It's alright
Even through this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been through this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.

But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive through this storm

So I say, come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes, I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on.

For the moment

Am not totally over

Perhaps, I will ever be

But I've been much better


At least

It doesn't hurt to think about it anymore

Hola :D

Am here to crap. LOL

Back at home.

For the rest of the study leave.

7 weeks to go before the external exam.


Well, as usual, enjoy 1st when back at home. :D

Been slacking almost a week *guilty*

Is time to really back on track =)


Little crapping xD

Able to catch up with this babieee back from Aussie.


Cute . Handsome . Lovely

AWESOME !

:D


Till then, have a nice day :)

D uncertainties

Back in KL on last Sunday for the 3 weeks revision classes

Been rotting at home for almost 2 weeks

lovely

xoxo

Longest week I ever have and it goes on till next Tuesday

guess what

results for the blarrdy exam will be coming out that day

12.10.2010

and the results will BLOODY too

*pray hard*

Theres too many uncertainties keep on coming

well, uncertainties make up the life

Give me the strength to get through all these

as possible as I could

An Experience

1st ever experience with professional slimming center

Marie France Bodyline



Body Shaping Therapy

It WORKS !!!

" So expensive.... "

" Really can slim down? ... "

" How it works, you also have to control your diet and exercise... "

These are those which will pop up in my mind whenever i saw the advertisements... haha... i bet some of you here too...

I came across an advertisement when I was flipping through CLEO magazine about the slimming program. And I saw there was some free trial session for the readers. I decided to give it a try, as well as a way to pamper myself :P

It was my 1st attempt to send in SMS

Out of the blue

I GOT IT ! :D

I was given a free trial session :D

Here goes my experience :

1st, the front-desk staffs

OMG... Superb friendly and nice :)

I tot with my student look that day, I won't be able to have such nice services like those who had pay thousand bucks to them... and mine is totally FOC.... lol...

2nd, the consultation session

Interview and measurement took place in a private room... comfortable :)

The consultant, Kim, awwww.... I love her so muchh :D

Superb friendly again !!! Nevertheless, gorgeous and charming.

When it came to measurement session... lol... *shy*

Took off the clothes for more accurate measurements

Problems: Lack of firmness on arms and cellulite on thigh areas. *oh yea, i got orange peel T.T*

Advice: Re-shaping needed.

I was promoted for some tailored made slimming program which more emphasis on my main problem areas... 60 sessions cost about RM 2600... and yeah... this is student price @.@

The free 60 mins slimming session

Reduction of cellulite (the orange peel) and water retention on thigh areas.

Scrub, massage took place for 15 mins

Continue with sleeping mask covered with *electric-warmed blanket* for 25 mins

Reduce water retention and increase level of metabolism

Wrapped up with transparency wrapper *hot wrapping* for 20 mins

*That was the time when i can felt the warm and itchy feelings on my thigh areas. I can see my skin became slightly red through the transparency wrapper*

Well, at 1st, I don't really put high expectation and is just to get the experience.

But, it didn't turn me down.

There is slightly different on my thigh areas

Felt it after I wore my jeans after the session :D

We can felt it although it was just slightly different *girls are sensitive about these*...LOL

Thighs became slightly tighter and firmer :D

The week after the trial slimming session

Which told me it works again... LOL

I noticed that my thighs became red through the week after the session.

At 1st, I was shocked to see that because I was told it will disappear soon after few hours , but it didn't.

It continued till the second day, and it turned from the redness to the color like "bruises"... I was like OMG, what happened ??? It was totally cleared to see that if i wear a short pants. It continued for 3 to 4 days.

As for the week, I tried to massage my thighs with lotion, yea, I could feel the slight itchiness on them when the massage took place.

I was shocked for that, thought it was the side effects, sensitiveness of my skin or whatever, but I just leave it for the entire week, as I was busy for the study week and have no mood to take care of it.

Thanks God. The skin on thighs came back to normal after the week. I was thinking, it might be the effects of the burnt cellulite.


Am not expecting much as it was just 1 session or treatment... haha... might give it a try if am really have the extra $$$ in future....LOL..

but overall nice and satisfied experience :D

有朋友曾经告诉我

只要达到目的

有时候可以不必在意当中的过程


开始听到时觉得有点不同意

觉得这样太自私了


当中的过程包括了待人处事的态度

过程往往比结果还来得重要


在不久前

为了达到目的

我牺牲了当中的过程

心里确是有百般的不愿意

但我不管了


虽然不是最好的结果

但却得到了我想要的

看见了最真实的

希望这回是值回票价

让我到达目的地

Little update from me :)

Finished the most ever torturing final exam.

It was real tortured session, for almost a month.

From preparing till exam, I guess it really tortured most of the AFA 2 dudes.

Books of study text, tonnes of notes and past year papers, these are what we facing during the time, and soon starting from next month onwards again. External exam, 3 months from now.

Instead of these, stress and insomnia also accompanied us real *well*

my messy table... since 3 weeks before my final... which i hate so much... it will become messy again no matter how many times i re-arranged... and I gave up...

2 messy tables occupied by me

Lunch and dinner time will be my most favorite times... which i can get rid from those books and notes... LOL


Current status:

Back at home *love*

The best place for myself to have a break and breath smoothly...

with series and movies waiting for me !

Till then, do miss you guys much :)


Life is about running with time, and time flies.

heels !

in LOVE with these !

I want THEM !!!

*photos taken from Jenny Sun Photography*

Having a pair of flat shoes for almost 6 months

Yes, same and the only flat shoes of mine for the entire 6 months and for the moment

Which in the past, I can have 1 new shoes for average of every 1 month...

Don't have the time and suitable one on the right time =(

Sprained my both my ankles beginning of the year, 1 before and 1 after the CNY, so just balanced-up both of them.... *lame*

Terrible experience... so difficult to recover T.T

Went for doctor, advice given :

You need to have flat shoes for some times to make them recover faster. Cause i told him I could feel the pain sometimes even though the bruises had gone whenever I am walking, either with heels or not, can't really walk smoothly and comfortable like in the past... =(

Didn't shop for SHOES for the entire 6 months, although I can see some nice shoes when having some shopping...

Moreover, most of them are with heels !!! Arrghhhhh

Can't really afford to have heels for the time being because of public transportation concerns and my college's "strategic position", building structures which contain a lot of stair cases, and also some "small mountains"...

6 months, I bet you should recover by now !!!

Last one for the semester

Had my last tutorial class for the semester today

End of semester again

* the always slow & steady Mr Chin *

Recalling back the 16 weeks we had gone through during the semester

Lectures, tutorials, mid-term tests etc. etc.

How time flies

taken during our toilet break... LOL

*treasure* every moment we had together... LOL again...hahaa

Last but not least

End of semester means

Final exam is coming very soon

1 more week to go

so called the " S.T.R.E.S.S LOOK "

* 想任性一次 *

*picture taken from in the midst of thinking*

Doubt

am I in the way that

too sensitive

too concern

too care


on anything i do

on anyone who i deal with


I doubt sometimes

*picture taken from in the midst of thinking*

... ...

几天闷热的天气

突然下起大雨了

终于连‘你’也顶不到了

那我呢?

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♥ 二, 请传给另外十个人

♥ 三, 传阅人请在十位被点的人的留言板上通知他, 他被点咯!

♥ 四, 这当中的十位不得拒绝

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♥ 六, 这些被点名者, 你们被点会祝福

♥ 七, 不可回点哦, 并且愿望会实现和得到幸福




♥ 坐上幸福热气球，开始咯 ♥

幸福热气球：第一阶段

1. 绰号：慧婷

2. 星座：白羊座

3. 生日：3/4/1989

4. 兴趣：旅游、听音乐、逛街

5. 血型：B

6. 最宝贵的东西: 家庭


幸福热气球：第二阶段

1. 有喜欢的人吗: 有

2. 有交往吗：没有

3. 幸福吗：或许该知足了 ❤

4. 他很爱你吗：不会吧

5. 如果你有勇气最想做什么：放下手头上的一切，独自到外头走走一段时间


幸福热气球：第三阶段

1. 你被谁点: 秀璇

2. 他是你的谁：朋友的姐姐

3. 他的个性是：开心就好咯

4. 他长得怎样：大姐大型，带点可爱

5. 跟他认识多久：大概 6 年

6. 你想跟他说什么：想说、该说的都当面说了啦...

7. 如果他变成你的情人：哈哈，不可能啦，我们正常得很...


幸福热气球：第四阶段

1. 最爱的音乐：看那时候的感觉和气氛，最重要是好听

2. 最爱的季节：秋 ❤

3. 最爱的卡通：Disney 卡通 (小时很少看卡通咧，跟着妈妈看港剧的)

4. 最爱的颜色：白色

5. 最想去的国家：欧洲、澳洲 ❤

6. 最爱的水果：青苹果 ❤

7. 最爱的人：父母亲 ❤


幸福热气球：第五阶段

1. 你很爱哭吗：小时奶奶都叫我*哭包*，大了还是一样，伤心哭了觉得好些

2. 你很爱笑吗：笑得出就笑咯

3. 你是很有信心的人吗：现在不是

4. 你想要怎样的生活：简单开心的

5. 你喜欢自己吗：还好

6. 你喜欢睡觉吗：没事做时的最爱！

7. 你喜欢唱歌吗：还不错


幸福热气球：第六阶段

开始点名：


❤ Joo Ann

❤ Jun Yen

❤ Bee Yin

❤ Wan Yi

❤ Win Shen

❤ Zhi Sheng

❤ Chek Kang

❤ Jian Hao

❤ Shu Jou

❤ Adelene





如果你有三个愿望 , Tell me your wish :


1- 顺利毕业


2- 身边的亲人都健康平安


3- 一切都能顺心如意

以为还是以为

我以为

终究也只是我以为


那也只是不想逃避

越是想逃避

越是逃避不了

更不用说放手


真的有那么难吗


不会去猜测

不会期盼奇迹的发生

不会奢望一切还可以重来


不想再执着些什么

只想无怨无悔的

做自己想要的


仅此而已

Miles to go

So near yet so far...

Mid-term test on Monday and Tuesday...

Going back home on Thursday.... *weeeeee~~~~~*

It is just so near to the day I am going back home...

But when seeing and thinking so many chapters yet to cover...

It seems to be so far away ....

*just to blab here while studying*

simple as that

almost having same routine everyday ....

spending most of the time at college from morning till late afternoon for lectures & tutorials ...

i am in love with Thursday lately

the day seems to start right after 12.30pm's tutorial class

although still need to attend lectures next day ....

*no need to do tutorials 1st...lol*

but it seems to be a very nice Friday for me too ;)

Okies... because weekends coming...

the only 2 days that which i feel i can breath smoothly ...

no heavy lectures and tutorials ....

simple as that =)

Sometimes i got the feeling that it was just so simple to make myself happy...

even small thingy stuff will make me feel happy...

maybe there were too many things that happened on me recently...

instead of working and pushing myself real hard to overcome them...

i tend to get thankful easily nowadays =)

* i wonder was this a good or bad sign? *

Don't try to complicate them, maybe life is just simple as that.

Definitely not

A long abandoned blog


Nothing much to update recently

Everything seems like not going on my way

Definitely not the one that i expected to be in now

I won't give up

taken from in the midst of thinking

Stress has been hunting me since the 1st week of lectures and i guess for the rest of my final year
Moreover after knowing that I have 1 more outstanding paper to be cleared
that really make me speechless and extremely down


Trying to take it and move on, wonder how far can i go till the end.

不想拥有太多情绪

没那么简单 - 黄小琥

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在
看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安
只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际
也许好也许坏各一半

不爱孤独
一久也习惯
不用担心
谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话
随便听一听
自己做决定

不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上
关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没那么容易
才会特别让人着迷

什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心
曾经

想念最伤心
但却最动心
的记忆

Fight*ing

Having "study leave" while others having their holidays ... *wtf*

Failed one of my papers for the last semester ... *wtf* again

The feeling was totally not good at all when it comes to --- > FAILED

For the very 1st time in my life i failed in my core exam


Re-study & re-doing all the notes and tutorials are torturing...

when you used to study & do the same things...

they seem to be very familiar but you still need to force yourself to go through it...


Okiess... these will end in 6 days time ... bear with it patiently Hoi Ting !...=.='''

不联系的思念

有一种思念叫做不联系

思念一个人的时候

想听到他的声音

会很想拿起电话联络他

但当拿起电话时

那勇气却又慢慢消失了


深怕电话通了没回应

深怕对方冷淡的回应

深怕对方看见了未接电话却不会再打回来


发信息

又害怕对方不回


就算电话接通了

回了信息

有时候却会叫人失望

那还是算了吧 ... ...


联系了

或许又是另一回事了

想像中的一切往往比现实美好些


不联络不代表不思念 ... ...

有时正因为想念所以才不联系 ... ...

因为想念而不知该说些什么 ... ...


你最近还好吗 ?



Extracted from Facebook, edited =)

untitled

finished Next Stop...
the taiwan drama series that i previously mentioned...
the ending...
was far from my expectation...
i expected for more nice story line...


sometimes when come to love...

is it really pure faith...

we just need to wait...

or we need to work for it...


sometimes we tend to force ourselves ignore something else

and focus on other that we think that is more important


will it be too late if

we keep on waiting...

we keep on ignoring....

we keep on considering...


especially when we don't know what to do

how to deal with

or failed it

which will just makes people feel scare, hopeless, sad etc. etc.

to think and deal with it


Just let it be what it should be... ...

SHE is the one

guess who...haha

yeah... is her

she is the one

my lovely mum

today is her day...

28th February...

As you guys who know me...

I am not good in expressing myself...

especially when come to face to face interact...

which i think is totally fail....

so i just write a little bit here for her to release out everything...Lol...hahaha....


I never express my feeling to her whether i am happy, sad, depress, stress out...

not to say hugging her...

All these disappeared since i was in primary school...

i just can recall back till that time... haha...

Never...

or should i say never ever again???.....haha


I use to settle problems/everything as i could on my own...

It will just go to mum whenever i can't fix them...

And years ago, it just goes straight to my brother...

then only will go to them(dad/mum) if both of us can't find any solution...


Sometimes when they asked us,
"why i never heard that from you before?"
"when you guys did/settled that?"
"how you guys made it?"

and we normally just smile, said,
"nothing to bother lah, small matter... settled ady wat...haha"

of course, sometimes will get scolded for not informing them...haha...

Not that they are not caring...
They love us very much...

I don't know why these will happened on me and brother... haha
Not letting them to worry about us as possible as we could during our very young age...

I am not saying that we are both good daughter and son...haha
but i am thankful that mum has trained us to grow in this way...

We do need loves and cares from dad and mum like others...
being pampered...
but in a different way...
and we definitely got it =)

But sometimes I do want to 'manja' with them like little girl....haha...LOL...


Many times i got the urge that i wanna tell her...

"Mum, I Love You"

even when i called to wish her just now...

but it just went off because of the shyness...

what happen to me???...*wtf me*


She might not see this post...

is just for me to express out what i am thinking now...

maybe will show to her one day when my shyness go off...Lol...


till then...

Happy Birthday Mummy =)

谎言

第一次听这首个的时候
是在 ‘下一站幸福 ’
印象并不深刻
可能只是复歌那段吧

第二次是在和朋友唱K时
她点唱了这首歌
那时看见了歌名
有些奇怪
但却爱上了它的曲子

下载了
不断的重复播放
确实是扣人心弦


当爱情不再有热情时

诚实是最后一道防线


有时候

爱情或许会让人失去理智

编辑了所谓爱的谎言

那时只为了不想让对方心疼伤心

但却没想到当对方知道后

会让他更心疼百倍


不想伤害对方往往是谎言的借口

但那也算是自私吧

只为了维持彼此之间的感情


有时候

爱的谎言或许会让你付出更多的代价

对不起也只是对不起

A quick ones ;)

Been rotting around since Sunday...

packing up & PPS*ing...

on leave*ing for 2 weeks for this CNY... woohoo...

work 1 week rest 2 weeks worrr... sei lorr....

i have not yet back in Alor Star as planned yesterday... which is Monday...

thxsss to my lovely brother who haven't finish up his work before having his CNY leave...

which supposed to start on yesterday... zzZZz

what i can do now is looking to the HP & waiting for his call eagerly...

honestly... i can't wait to go back anymore!!!


it doesn't mean that my CNY mode is on... Lol

i just want to back at home ;)


having a last minute shopping at Pavillion on last saturday...

to get a pants for myself...

omfg... i told myself that don't ever do last minute shopping again!!!

everywhere was packed with people....


Between...

instead of preparing & celebrating CNY...

hope i will be having some times to refresh & restructure myself during this 2 weeks time...

i need it badly =)


Last but not least...

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone ;)

Intern

started my internship yesterday...

as usual, 1st day is always the easiest day to pass when we go for something which is totally new for us...

had been assigned to one of the audit team...
oh god...
they are just simply nice & friendly seniors...
which i didn't put too much expectation before this...

they are angels...
treating us like kindergarden children... lol... haha
they are willing to share and teach everything they know, whatever we ask for...
instead of just asking to do this and that without explaining...

honestly
i felt that i am asking too much of questions when completing the works
whenever they told us how to solve
then i will just realized that ...
*oh...yahor...supposed to be like that one... so simple... i studied before...*
don't know how to apply on time... kns
hope they won't get mad by asking too much one day...haha

dismissed off quite on time, 5.00pm yesterday...
but not today...

when i finished part of my tasks...
i saw the time was already 5.23pm...
i turned and looked around...
most of them were still working...
so i continued mine...

until the department supervisor came to my place and asked
" you want to order anything for dinner? " *bringing along the McD delivery catalog*

i looked at the time again...
already 6.45pm ... most of them were still there...

i am not joining them...
prepare to go home larr...haha

Overall... still not bad... ;)
Hope it will last for the rest of 3 months...
Then i guess my internship should be quite interesting...=)


Good nitezz...

不懂

每次当有了放手的决心时

总会发生一些事情

有种莫名其妙的感觉

像在意味着什么似的

让那勇气又渐渐消失了


是错觉

是想太多

还是什么

那或许也只是借口


有时候

不是不想放手

而是不懂怎么放手


明知道有点多余

会失望心疼

却心甘情愿地让心疼


心疼累了就真的会放手了吗

double SHORT

back in KL today... zzzZZzz

5 days break right after exam


FIRST short

it was really a very short break
for the 1st time i felt it

didn't have enough time to finish what i have planned
home cleaning session for CNY
my own stuffs

not to say to have a rest


SECOND short

i lost my long hair~~~~~~
went for a hair cut the day after i back in AS
which i waited for so long to cut the GRASS after 3 months
part of it was for my internship purpose

i told him i want a hair that
suitable for me
doesn't look messy
easy for me when working
easy for me to take care of it

when it turned out
already 3 inches ++ shorter

it looks OK when i was there

when i back at home looking at the mirror

OMFG...
why was it so SHORT???!!!!
where is my long hair which i waiting thousand yearsss for it to long???


Okay...i know i can't do anything now...
instead of waiting it to long again...

....

exam period
*lifeless*

2 out of 3 papers
1 more to go

sleeping time was turned upside down these days
sleepless nite on the nite before exam
although i tried to go on bed earlier

finished audit paper yesterday
tot i will have a slightly good nap after lunch
it was not and i dreamed
guess what i dreamed

all the questions and answers popped up in my dream
they just popped up easily in my mind compared during the exam
*wtf* i squeezed my brain when i was doing the paper
and now they just popped up like that *wtf*

the feeling was just horrible when u finished the paper in the morning
and it still popped up when u having a nap/rest
it woke me up immediately
it was just a 45 minutes nap


well...
it was a slightly better nite for me last nite...
it was just because i just had 4 hours sleep at night since 4 days ago...
tired...feel wanna sleep...but just can't fall asleep...

Okay...1 more to go on Monday...
rotting since yesterday without touching the notes and book...

Gotta back on them now...

单身潜逃

单身潜逃

词曲：戴佩妮
编曲：吴庆隆
演唱：戴佩妮

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌

我也和你一样
曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤

我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的铐
摺叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷
摺叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

Random call

Mum called me just now

As usual... a random call i thought

She told me that brother will be going back a week earlier before CNY


I know what is her intention for telling me that

as she asked me to reject the internship's offer which will starts early February onwards

asked me to find others...or to start it later on March

even asked me not to go for the training & back for holidays *swt*

since my brother was out here for his studies 6 years ago & now working

before i was here studying

i can felt that how a mum miss her son

the sadness when every time sending him back to KL

the happiness when fetching him from the station

preparing his favorite meals...etc...etc... when every time brother back at home

kinda envy him that time & wondering will i have the same when i m the one studying outside next time.... haha

since young... i have a thinking that my mum was kinda more *sayang* my brother...Lol....

haha...OK... i know i was wrong

Yeap... i was having the same *loves* from my mum
(is the time for my 2 sisters to *ciak chor...lol...haha=p)

I know why mum keep asking me to reject the offer or take leave
(which i don't think is good)

for me being able to back together with brother

having our family time together earlier...longer...during CNY

both of us spending most our time here...work.... study


sometimes i do felt sorry when every time she asking me...

"are you coming back this weekend/public holiday??"

reasons given...
will having tests... busy for assignments... due to the laziness to travel for 6 hours...bla bla bla...


i am just studying... why am i not having the time to go back in the past 3 months??
busy than those who are working???
*wth*

When there is a will....there is a way & solution

i will try my best to make it better

Okay... i should stop crapping

thanksgiving F.T.Y.E 2009

Happy New Year 2010 Everyone !!!


Taken during the very 1st minute of 2010

*creative* work by 1 of my frens while waiting for our brunch
@ Kim Gary

Things might not turn out as what we expected to
but yet those which are not expected keep on happening
they are just beyond our control
stay strong & take them as part of the challenges in our life

THANKSGIVING for the year ended 2009

things might not turn out to be as expected through out the year...

but i am thankful that i am still able to cope up with them...

although i am not yet that perfect in handling them...

FIRST : Family

Problem still goes on which has been occurred since 8 years ago. The financial problems. No doubt that it was really tough times for my family, especially my parents. I can't help anything as i am still not yet capable. Being part of the family, i am not blaming anything yet i am thankful to be given a chance to see the other side of this world of this world, the reality. I do learned and observed a lot, the way how ppl treat us including relatives, how ppl give us a helping hand when we almost give up, being betrayed by relatives... etc etc...

Don't expect any return but just do it with sincerity of your heart. We will have more than that.

Tears do dropped when i was on the phone with mom some times, when she told me what have happened right there. They strive very hard, just to get us a better living. Sometimes i do try to understand or put myself into the situations they are facing, the reality of this world which involved your very loved ones/relatives. They didn't mention what had actually happened, although i know that they were disappointed, but they told that people are not granted to help us even they are capable enough, instead of hoping for others, we just do whatever we can and do help up those whichever is possible if we are capable.

No doubt that the problems had been hunting us for years. Although it was not happened directly on myself, but i was thankful that i am given the opportunity to be exposed to the very real side of this world at my early age.

And for now, with the blessings, thanks that everything is going on smoothly and better than before these. Things get to settle and soon i know, a lot more of happiness are right there waiting for my family. Thanks to brother that do helped out a lot all these while. I am willing/can't wait to share out the burden of you guys once i am capable.

SECOND : Stay sound & Healthy

May all my loved ones always stay sound and healthy especially for my grandma. I want back grandma who will ask me early in the morning when having breakfast outside.." Do you want to share Cola with me?? I can't finish it..." This is the real her...a 85++ grandma of mine. Her health condition had been going down for these 2 years. All of us are worry for her especially my mum who was taking care of her. She had been committed to hospital by ambulance for 2 times in 6 months time. She was the one who can be said that healthy than anyone of us in the family until she reached her age of 80++. She seldom get sick & not to say that those high cholesterol or high blood pressures.

For the very 1st time when i heard that she was committed to the hospital, i was totally shocked. i was having my brunch at Oldtown and i can't finish up the rest of the meal after i got the news. I was told by my mum and i can heard that she was crying.

The feelings when your loved ones are not doing well or etc...is not that good. Yeah... we must treasure our loved ones whenever we could make it & yet not to forget to love and take care ourself in order to treasure them. =)

THIRD : My study

I am thankful that I was given the chance to be part of AFA. It was a big challenge for me as an average student to get into this course. I will try my best to pass through all the papers for all the 4 semesters. It is my promise for myself which will be my priority for the 2 years ahead.

As for my internship, I am thankful that i had been selected by a small-medium firm after a few attempts. It was hard to accept when I had been rejected for the very 1st attempt.
For the 2nd attempt, i was just reluctant to reject the offer given. Yeah, no doubt that we have the right to accept or reject, but as a trainee, i felt bad to reject once i had been accepted as i was given the opportunity to learn. Forced to reject due to some reasons.
Felt hopeless whenever i heard that some of my coursemates/classmates are going for their internships. I know...kinda "gia-shu' problems...haha...
Thanks god... i got the offer for the 3rd attempt. Had been accepted for internship from February to April.

I know is kinda weird as it is only an internship which is just a small thingy... not yet coming out to find a job... but to me... it meant although it was just a small matter...

Last but not least, for him. I am thankful that I was given the opportunity to know you, although it might not turn out as expected & lots of disappointments. I am glad to be given a chance to know you, to care about you, to learn how to love and what is love etc etc... You are the one who let me know what love actually is. No regret in knowing till loving you, which were all beyond my control. If i was given a chance, it will still be the same for me, but for sure, with a different way. May god bless you with tonnes of love & happiness for the years ahead.

p/s : Went through all the previous posts for year 2009. I was laughing at myself. Am i the one who changing??? Or times can change everything??? or the world is changing???